I left school and within three months was called up for my Nat- ional Service (Draft). During my basic training I was selected for an officer's training school and duly went to "Mons Officer Cadet School". While I was there I began looking into my desires and in a public library over 30 miles away I found a copy of Havelock Ellis "Psychology of Sex" and read of "Eonism" and from that I gradually learned that there were others like myself and that I was not a homo- sexual. Incidentally since that day I have always gone to every pub- lic library in any large town I have been in to see if there are any books on Eonism which I have not read.

In due course I was commissioned and posted to active service. Just before I left I found a copy of Havelock Ellis' "Studies in the Psychology of Sex" and bought it. For the next year I read and re-

read the various cases which were discussed in the book. After I had been overseas about six months the urge came back to me with in- creased strength and I went out and purchased my first article of clothing--a pink nylon slip, and in the months that followed I bought a pink vest, a pair of high heeled shoes, a bra and a rubber bust form. These I would put on whenever the opportunity arose.

After two years I was demobilized and started learning my pro- fession. To begin with I lived at home and travelled up to London for my studies, but it soon became obvious to my parents and myself that this was impractical as we lived too far out, so I moved into digs in London.

After I had been living in London for a few months I plucked up enough courage to go to a ladies dress shop to purchase a dress for a "girlfriend". Over the next few months I acquired the basic fundamentals of my wardrobe: high heeled shoes, panties, a grey skirt and pink blouse, all of which except the high heeled shoes I now realize were in terrible taste, but as I had no one to help me I had to work these things out for myself.

About this time I had my first really serious affair with a girl. I had previously naturally taken various girls out but this was "it" and I resolved then to give up TVism. I put all my clothes away and for a period of about six months I did not once dress up; but the urge came back and one evening I couldn't resist trying on my panties and nylons and from then on I was back in my old habits again.

I now decided that if I was going to dress up as a girl I had

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